Adventure

I decided tonight that I would read my card using Osho Zen Tarot.  It is a terrifyingly... adept... deck.  It has intelligence that most people do not have and cannot hope to ever achieve.

I shuffled the deck thinking- I know what I have to do- now how do I do it? What a question, eh?

When I finished shuffling, I cut the deck and pulled my card.  I expected something unusual.  I got Adventure:

"Zen says truth has nothing to do with authority, truth has nothing to do with tradition, truth has nothing to do with the past- truth is a radical, personal realization.  You have to come to it.

Knowledge is certain; the search for personal knowledge is very, very hazard.  Nobody can guarantee it.  If you ask me if I can guarantee anything, I say I cannot guarantee you anything.  I can only guarantee danger, that much is certain.  I can only guarantee you a long adventure with every possibility of join astray and never reaching the goal.  But one thing is certain: the very search will help you to grow.  I can guarantee only growth.  Danger will be there, sacrifice will be there; you will be moving every day into the unknown, into the uncharted, and there will be no map to follow, no guide to follow.  Yes, there are millions of dangers and you can go astray and you can get lost, but that is the only way one grows.  Insecurity is the only way to grow, to face danger is the only way to grow, to accept the challenge of the unknown is the only way to grow."

Imagine my surprise on pulling that card and reading that description.  Those of you who have been following the blog consistently will understand.  Those of you who have an inkling of knowledge about me and my current situate will understand.

Adventure.  Perhaps it is exactly how to do it.

Osho Zen Tarot- I am grateful, graceful.  Even though I consistently and passionately loathe the very fiber of my meagre being, and I am not sure I am worthy of Adventure- I am grateful.

Until next time.