Let me explain. I feel heartbreak, heartache, and heartsickness. I have experienced all of them intimately and not necessarily romantically. I know the pain of love lost and love never again to be had. I know how lonely lovelessness is and how wonderful the warmth of love is when it wraps around you like a blanket. I have trounced on hearts and had my own heart trounced upon in return. I get it.
But never have I known the pain, shame, and brutality of someone claiming to love you and then twisting that love into an excuse. I was used as an excuse for someone to hurt himself. My feelings were used as an excuse for someone to hurt me, to wound my spirit, soul, and trust. Badly, and with vigor, confidence and ultimatums.
What kind of love is that?
How can love be defined with 'Either…Or'?
Until next time…
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